And again..

Ben and I weren't supposed to smoke this time; but then it started with Lola giving me some weed, I put it in my box and forgot about it. Then Ben was curious, [becuase it's reallyf ucking strong] how good it was, so then i'm like okay fine we'll pack my oney and that'll be good, then we smoked two more. So then we hung out with Ky & Josh, and Josh handed Ben a bowl, and it went from there. I guess I've just been raely worried that I"m smoking too much. I think if I was Kylie would mention something, I asked her if I was one of those "dependent" people that we were talking about in the car one day up to Bemidji, she said No.      I also told her that her and Ben were the only people I care if I disapointed them. I dont think she really understood me? I dont' know. I have a more spritual connection with Ben, and with Kylie I have this..."we think alike" connection. Something like that. Maybe I'm just making this smoking thing a bigger deal than it is.  I thought I was dying friday night.  I couldn't stop laughing then I'd forget to breathe. It was crazy. I still have to clean today. BORRIIING.

I wanted to bake, but we have nothing to bake with. I don't know where everyone is at...it's gay. anyways I'm gonna go jam out to techno and clean. laters.