My Own Test of Patience and Self Discipline

So I'm starting this notebook thing, I started it January 13th 2008, and I'm writing in this notebook everyday for a year. So next year on January 13th, 2009, I'm going to write my last page and the day after that start typing. It's a notebok of my random thoughts. I'm on page...17. I believe. Or almost. and I just foudn the perfect notebook to continue writing in it. If It hink grilled cheese sandwich, I write "Grilled cheese sandwich" and then continue on with whatever thoughts come after that. I write whenever I want, whenever I can, but I'm forcing myself to write a certain way. In capital letters. It's working pretty well for me. Every now and again I slip and write cursive but for like two letters. It's just so hard I want to start typing it up now, but I know if I type it up now, I won't want to stop then I'll add more thoughts that I haven't really put in my notebook, which really stinks. Sooo, waiting one year to finish this, is....GAYY! I'm so impatient. And I'm working with oils now for my paintings, That's testing my patience as well. Arrgh.  And I'm trying to stop using "hate" I'm all like "Why can't we just love everyone and get along..." in general in otherwords...Nooooooo wars and shit ya know? becuase not everyone can get along, becuase we're all unique with differnt points of views,b ut if we just listen we could...[THAT WAS SO HIPPY!!!....not really just.....whatever shut up] anyways, I'm trying to stop using the word hate. like 'I HATE THAT STUPID DUMBASS"....it sucks. Sooo "I dislike this very much so" or something...ha!!!

Oi. It's not working all that well. [dry you stupid oil paint!!!]  <--See what I mean? Tragic. I need to finish this painting to the left of me...so I can bring it into school and start my portfolio. I'm sooo excited for art shows this year. I'm doing...three. :] It shall be AMAZAZAZIIIIING. I hope I get something...not necessarily money but like...recognition, maybe a scholarship? That would be nice.I think I've found my style of art, like MY style, sure theres someone out there who probably uses the same techniques and the amazing amount of patience I have....buuut for now until I meet that someone, It shall be MY style of art. hahaha. I add on a lot. Ben pointed that out to me the other day. We were hanging out with our friend Brandon, and I was drawing a question mark on my wrist [because I question everything and I want it as a tattoo so when people ask me 'Hey! What's the question mark for?' I can be like, 'Good question!' har har har anywho] it went from just a plain question mark, to spiral, so ALL THIS OTHER CRAZY SHIT!! hahaha. but I would just keep adding on, there was vines, that turned into a face, and bubbles, and shit, i don;'t even know, of course checkers though..I love checkers. Aww checkers. Weee. My art teacher is putting me into Advanced Painting. Me = STOOOKKEEDUH!!! :] Anyways, I need to go shower and hit the sack :]....ish that sounds so gross but oh well.

Fare thee well!