Refreshing

Thursday & Friday I've come to realize are the only two days of the week [school week] that I actually feel like getting up, getting dressed, doing my make up, hair, etc. They're like my refresh days. Thursday was a really good day, I dressed up pretty stylish, I got to drive my car :] then I got my tattoo gun!!! :]]] Yesterday, I wasn't so stylish, in fact I just didn't really care, it wasn't that I wasn't motivated to do anything just, I woke up late, actually an hour and a half late, my hair wasn't washed, and I couldn't find my  make up, but I got to DRIVE MY CAR TO SCHOOOOL ahhahaha. I love that thing. :] It's amazazazing. I haven't had the urge to cut in two months. :] That's nice.

I think when I did everything had hit me at the same time, mom, grandpa, nana, shit at school, it was lame. And me and Ben were kind of in a dip as well. Then my grades dropped, and nana was bitching, and I just felt like nothing could make me feel better at the time, becuase the only people I had to run to, one was kind of frustrated with me, and the other well, was going through the same thing at the same time, which really spun me out, becuase we think a like and shit, and we kind of go through rough times at the same time, not all the time, but when it counts. ha. Idk.

I'mma go tattoo now :] toodles.